Life’s been a whirlwind the past few weeks. Lots of work stuff has happened… But since I try not to ever talk about work stuff on the blog, I’ll leave it at that.
Lila’s been out of school for the past two weeks on Spring Break.
It makes working really hard. The working-Mom-guilt has been rearing its’ ugly head. Especially when I leave the house in the morning and peel my eldest daughter off of me, or bribe her with M&M’s at 9:05 a.m. so she doesn’t cry when I leave. And especially when my wee-one holds on for dear life to the shoulders of my shirt and forces her head inside the space between my chin and my chest so far that I wish I could just velcro her to my body and take her with me.
But, I leave her and her “big” sister (is an almost 3-year-old really “big”? I think not) with her very capable Nelly (and Nelly’s daughters, who are also off of school this week) and she frowns. And whimpers. And I wave.
Sometimes I hate waving. Goodbyes are dumb. And sometimes tear-inducing.
I love to work, I do. And usually on Monday mornings I’m excited and ready to go back to my world and do what feeds me figuratively and literally. But by Friday, today, I’m so ready for my time with them.
Because they, along with their Daddy, are the best things about my life.
They’re the best of me.
They might not always get the best of me.
But they are the best of me.
And when I’m with them, I will make sure that I’m present. Consider this an on-going promise. I will be with them. I will be smiling, laughing, playing, reading, guiding, correcting and giggling with them, because this time is zooming by.
Before I know it, I won’t be buying convertible carseats, I’ll be hearing about how they want to drive a convertible.
So yes, life is a whirlwind.
But I’m so thankful that today is Friday because the weekend is ours.
P.S. If I haven’t emailed you back in the past week or so – forgive me. I’m doing the best I can.