My dear friend, Summer over at Running Chatter, invited to me participate in a “blog hop.” As with many things these days, my good intentions are more accelerated than my actual ability to get stuff done. So, I’m a little late.
Sweet friend, thank you for inviting me to be part of this. (Summer is a photographer. She’s incredible. Check out her incredible work here.)
So, basically this blog hop asks 4 questions and 4 bloggers answer. Go here to check out the other blogs that Summer asked to participate.
1. What am I writing on/working on?
Currently I’m writing a few things. I’m journaling this process of losing my Mom and sharing some of it here. I also still write in in two journals to my girls. I started these journals on the days in 2008 and 2010 that I found out I was pregnant for them.
I’ve eased up on myself with my blogging. I used to feel so much pressure to have a new post.every.single.day. Now, I write when I can. When the words need to come out.
I was too busy writing about life that I felt like I wasn’t living it. Now, I live and then write.
2. How does my work/writing differ from others of it’s genre?
I’ll be honest, I don’t know.
But I do know that my voice is unlike anyone else’s. And your voice is unlike anyone else’s. We all have our own story to tell.
When you first start learning to use the wheel in pottery you might not know what you’re doing, but as time goes on you learn and you figure out that the clump of unformed clay is really a beautiful piece of art. I’m not saying that Two Pretzels is a “beautiful piece of art” (that makes me laugh), but it was, in the beginning, just a clump of unformed clay… now, it’s my legacy.
My legacy for my girls.
I like what it’s shaping up to be.
3. Why do I write what I do?
I write based on where I am in life.
It’s really that simple.
When I moved to another country, I wrote about it.
When I struggled to have a baby, I wrote about it.
When I was pregnant, yep, more writing.
I write when I find a great mascara or read a life-changing book.
I always write. I have always written.
I’ve been writing ever since I was that kid whose desk was moved next to the boys’ desks in elementary school in an attempt to dissuade me from talking… I was even moved next to the teacher’s desk on more than one occasion, but I kept talking. I’ve kept on talking. I just had so much to say.
I’m learning now that listening is even better than talking.
And when you listen, you learn and then you have even more to write about.
My Mom and I were huge believers in journaling. She always told me to write. Write.it.out. And I did. And when I am no longer on this earth, whoever finds my journals should burn them. They’re me at my worst. This blog? Hopefully this is me at my best.
When people tell me, “I can hear you saying that…” it pleases me. I want to stay true to me.
4. How does my writing process work?
I’m constantly writing down blog ideas: on the chalkboard in the kitchen, on my phone, on my computer. I have about 50 “draft” posts with half ideas typed in them.
For emotional stuff, I write and share later. I feel more protected when I do that. Sharing my feelings and where I really am in life is not something I’ve ever really done on my blog and I’m not overwhelmingly comfortable with it. Originally this blog was intended to be light and airy and maybe witty and easy. Feelings can be heavy and too much. I don’t like to be too self-indulgent. But with the loss of my Mom, I’m a different person and I feel more compelled to share than ever before.
So yeah. That’s how I write.
Thank you for reading.