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| My Mom and my girls – July 2013 |
My Mom died on September 9th, 2013.
I was expecting it.
But then again, I wasn’t.
Not like that…
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Since she’s died, I’ve written… and I’ve shared my thoughts on this wretched experience. I’ve been moved by the support, the love and the solidarity. Absolutely encompassed in love.
This is a club that I pray that none of you are already members of. But if you are, I’m sorry. From the bottom of my heart.
Read more about my story here, dear friends. And please, tell me about yours. You can always email me.
It starts on September 9th, 2013.
—The Story of Loss. On Losing my Mom. And some other grief and loss posts thrown in for good measure.
September 9, 2013 :: The day I found out :: Post here.
September 16, 2013 :: It’s One Week today :: Post here.
September 25, 2013 :: The Call :: Post here.
September 30, 2013 :: Slivers of Sunlight :: Post here.
October 6, 2013 :: That first week.Those first days :: Post here.
October 14, 2013 :: 14 days after :: Post here.
October 20, 2013 :: I found a treasure :: Post here.
November 4, 2013 :: She’s been gone for 4 weeks :: Post here.
November 13, 2013 :: I smile and drive and cry and smile and cry :: Post here.
November 17, 2013 :: Weekends aren’t easy :: Post here.
November 26, 2013 :: The holidays, the firsts :: Post here.
December 1, 2013 :: 8 weeks :: Post here.
December 10, 2013 :: The Dream :: Post here.
December 19, 2013 :: Vulnerability and Moving Forward :: Post here.
December 22, 2013 :: The reminders. They’re everywhere :: Post here.
December 29, 2013 :: 2013 :: Post here.
January 1, 2014 :: The New Year :: Post here.
January 7, 2014 :: 2 days from 4 months :: Post here.
January 17, 2014 :: Another Gift :: Post here.
January 25, 2014 :: She would have been 60 today :: Post here.
February 9, 2014 :: Five months :: Post here.
March 6, 2014 :: Almost six months :: Post here.
March 27, 2014 :: One of the Best Gifts Ever :: Post here.
April 1, 2014 :: We’re all in this together :: Post here.
April 24, 2014 :: 7 Months, Easter and Nope, I’m still not normal. :: Post here.
May 6, 2014 :: Mother’s Day without a Mom :: Post here.
June 1, 2014 :: Moving “forward” :: Post here.
July 6, 2014 :: Denial & acceptance & blah, blah, blah :: Post here.
August 20, 2014 :: So, I’m 35 :: Post here.
September 2, 2014 :: 7 days :: Post here.
September 8, 2014 :: The Day Before a Year :: Post here.
September 9, 2014 :: Hello, one year :: Post here.
October 11, 2014 :: The brain is funny :: Post here.
November 6, 2014 :: Love :: Post here.
November 30, 2014 :: Post here.
December 4, 2014 :: Another feather. Post here.
December 28, 2014 :: All was calm, all is bright. Post here.
January 18, 2015 :: They’re always with us? They’re always with us. Post here.
January 25, 2015 :: And today I remember. Post here.
March 8, 2015 :: A year and a half later. Post here.
April 16, 2015 :: And here I stand. Post here.
April 29, 2015 :: Joan & Shirley. Post here.
August 26, 2015 :: Perspective. Post here.
September 9, 2015 :: Two Years After. Post here.
November 1, 2015 :: Watching others go through it. Post here.
January 25, 2016 :: Happy Birthday, Mom. Post here.
March, 5, 2016 :: Air Tears. Post here.
April 26, 2016 :: Sitting Still. Post here.
December 27, 2016 :: So this was Christmas. Post here.
December 29, 2016 :: And our hearts sigh. Post here.
May 10, 2017 :: Phil Collins made me cry. Post here.
September 7, 2017 :: I guess I just miss my Mom. Four years. Post here.
March 18, 2018 :: When life gets hard, here’s how I handle it. Post here.
June 1, 2018 :: Words are magic. Post here.
September 30, 2013 :: Slivers of Sunlight :: Post here.
October 6, 2013 :: That first week.Those first days :: Post here.
October 14, 2013 :: 14 days after :: Post here.
October 20, 2013 :: I found a treasure :: Post here.
November 4, 2013 :: She’s been gone for 4 weeks :: Post here.
November 13, 2013 :: I smile and drive and cry and smile and cry :: Post here.
November 17, 2013 :: Weekends aren’t easy :: Post here.
November 26, 2013 :: The holidays, the firsts :: Post here.
December 1, 2013 :: 8 weeks :: Post here.
December 10, 2013 :: The Dream :: Post here.
December 19, 2013 :: Vulnerability and Moving Forward :: Post here.
December 22, 2013 :: The reminders. They’re everywhere :: Post here.
December 29, 2013 :: 2013 :: Post here.
January 1, 2014 :: The New Year :: Post here.
January 7, 2014 :: 2 days from 4 months :: Post here.
January 17, 2014 :: Another Gift :: Post here.
January 25, 2014 :: She would have been 60 today :: Post here.
February 9, 2014 :: Five months :: Post here.
March 6, 2014 :: Almost six months :: Post here.
March 27, 2014 :: One of the Best Gifts Ever :: Post here.
April 1, 2014 :: We’re all in this together :: Post here.
April 24, 2014 :: 7 Months, Easter and Nope, I’m still not normal. :: Post here.
May 6, 2014 :: Mother’s Day without a Mom :: Post here.
June 1, 2014 :: Moving “forward” :: Post here.
July 6, 2014 :: Denial & acceptance & blah, blah, blah :: Post here.
August 20, 2014 :: So, I’m 35 :: Post here.
September 2, 2014 :: 7 days :: Post here.
September 8, 2014 :: The Day Before a Year :: Post here.
September 9, 2014 :: Hello, one year :: Post here.
October 11, 2014 :: The brain is funny :: Post here.
November 6, 2014 :: Love :: Post here.
November 30, 2014 :: Post here.
December 4, 2014 :: Another feather. Post here.
December 28, 2014 :: All was calm, all is bright. Post here.
January 18, 2015 :: They’re always with us? They’re always with us. Post here.
January 25, 2015 :: And today I remember. Post here.
March 8, 2015 :: A year and a half later. Post here.
April 16, 2015 :: And here I stand. Post here.
April 29, 2015 :: Joan & Shirley. Post here.
August 26, 2015 :: Perspective. Post here.
September 9, 2015 :: Two Years After. Post here.
November 1, 2015 :: Watching others go through it. Post here.
January 25, 2016 :: Happy Birthday, Mom. Post here.
March, 5, 2016 :: Air Tears. Post here.
April 26, 2016 :: Sitting Still. Post here.
December 27, 2016 :: So this was Christmas. Post here.
December 29, 2016 :: And our hearts sigh. Post here.
May 10, 2017 :: Phil Collins made me cry. Post here.
September 7, 2017 :: I guess I just miss my Mom. Four years. Post here.
March 18, 2018 :: When life gets hard, here’s how I handle it. Post here.
June 1, 2018 :: Words are magic. Post here.
March 15, 2019 :: Grief as a Grown-Up. Post here. (About my Dad.)
![I got to hug my sister this weekend, after far too long.
And since neither of us have ever loved NOT ONE photo taken of us, I feel like this image is representative of what we feel comfortable posting on Instagram.
Rest assured, my little sister is nearly a decade younger and is gorgeous. She has a beautiful smile, amazing hair and she's taller and has better posture. I have crows feet and age spots and... wisdom [bossiness] that all older sisters possess.
I adore her.
Always have.
She's wickedly funny.
And nicer than I'll ever be.
She's patient.
And she's got this GRIT, this strength of character, this inner force that is all her, but is so reminiscent of my Mom.
I love that spark.
I love her.
Being close to her feels like home, still.
For so, so, so many years it was my sister, my Mom and I -- a trio.
It will be TEN years in September that it's just been her and I -- a duo.
I remember that the visits to Missouri after my Mom died felt so... different. It was like, we kept waiting for the other guest to show up so the party could start… but she never did. We felt that loss each time we were together.
Today, now, I still feel the loss when we're together - and I'm sure she does, too. But that loss has changed shape and I am so proud of how we've done this - gotten through what seemed like the unthinkable. Here we are. And we’re ok.
That's what life is: it's constant change, constant reaction, constant breathing.
I feel so blessed.
There is nothing like hugging someone you've known since she was born.
And taking photos with one another that neither of us ever will ever approve to show anyone else.
I love you, Taryn. To the moon and back. Forever. I'm so proud of you.
Xo,
Kylee
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